To my 'crush'

When asked to write a letter to my crush, this threw me a little. I have always considered a crush to be romantic feelings towards someone who is either unobtainable or uninterested. But through some miracle, you are neither. And by now, calling you my crush seems like an understatement of my feelings for you and our relationship.

You have been my partner for 8 years in a couple of weeks. Some times it feels so much less, and yet it is hard to recall how I was before you came into my life. Like any healthy relationship we've had our ups and downs, our tough times. But we're still here, and my love for you has only grown. We still have our silly giggly moments, and yet I feel perhaps more than my love, my respect and admiration for you has grown. Despite hardships you try your best, and whilst it is easy to run away and give up, you are generally stubborn and won't give up. Which has it's upsides, such as when I am also being stubborn for the wrong reasons, but also it's downsides when you just don't want to do something you really should (dentist/doctors comes to mind).

I'm sure I wind you up sometimes, and I know I say the wrong thing sometimes. I don't always consider that my words might be hurtful, because I consider it more a perhaps poor joke. Although at times you manage to enact your revenge though. And whilst you are the heat for my cold feet, those fingers of yours can be surprisingly icy too! And in that way I feel we compliment each other, both striving to help the other better themselves. Our interests don't always match, but that merely means we can have some freedom in our relationship.

I can't express truly how much you mean to me, and how happy you make me, even if it isn't always obvious. I know I sometimes cry and scream, and I know this upsets you. But whilst it might be something you did that set me off, it is merely the straw breaking this camel's back. And at the end of it, you are always the one to help me unload and help manage the seemingly impossible loads which bare upon me. And I can never thank you enough.

So, my dearest love, thank you. Thank you for wiping away my tears, for carrying my loads when my hands are bad, for hugging away my fears and for just being you. Flaws and all, I will love you forever and look forward to a future which is all ours. xxxxx